Thursday, June 30, 2011

Hoping For A Miracle

*Hey Everybody. Things have been better since my last entry. My "cabin fever" has slowly gotten better. I found a way to concentrate my mind a lot better; Super Mario Wii. You would think that Brooklyn would keep me busy & up on my feet, well when she gets her belly full & a nice diaper change, her mind is set nothing but on playing with her toys (she's easily amused). Plus she gets a kick at watching me play! Yesterday I heard some good news. A woman had told my boyfriend last week that a guy was selling his wife's car (who has passed on) & whenever I went to pick him up from work (Friday) we had looked at it. Well yesterday, the woman had told my boyfriend that there's nothing wrong with the car except that it needs a brake change, its just that he doesn't want to drive his wife's car. He's selling it for a GREAT price. So she said she would talk to the man about going to look at it (close up) on saturday... So hopefully everything goes well in that department!! Saturday, we're also going to talk to our previous landlord about some other apartments that are for rent to go look at. Let's face it, we can't live in my grandmothers house too much longer, their just going to have to sell it sooner or later anyways. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE living here, but my boyfriend wants to move out of family ties & back into our own world again. Which is much more peaceful. He's always moved where ever I wanted to, so I just want to make sure he's happy too. On another note;; Yesterday was a BEAUTIFUL summer day, perfect weather. Brooklyn & I walked to the bank, then we ran into my dad & he decided to give us a ride back home. After that we spent some time with my daddy & my little brother. A short while after we got home, my boyfriend comes in from work & believe it or not he bought me Pink Roses!!!! & for no reason what so ever! If you know my boyfriend personally, he's not that type of guy! :) I just didn't know what to say. I actually felt like I was important! :D. I need something to happen, not just anything but something fun, I haven't got to go out & just blow off some steam ever since graduation weekend. I miss my friends sometimes. I haven't been out in a while that I would feel guilty leaving Brooklyn behind, I would love to bring her along but I just need a break, at least just for a night. Mommy needs a break. Things are just getting so stressful & I don't have anything to be stressing over! I want to go on vacation, out of state for maybe just a weekend. Take some of my friends. I would hate to leave my baby girl behind though! That's a thing about having a child, it makes u feel guilty when u want to go out & blow off some steam. I really want a job but then again I want to stay home till Brooklyn gets a little bit older.
*So I've been considering selling avon again, to pick up at least a few extra bucks since my babysitter hunting isn't turning out that great. I HATE avon considering they jipped me out of my money (over 200$) but it did give me some money to work with. People say that money doesn't matter, well they need to wake up & smell some life cause in this century, money is your survival. I'm also considering creating an ebay store, since I have a few items to sell that Brooklyn doesn't need or use anymore. I still have my pictures on facebook if your interested in baby items. Guess I don't have much left to blog about. So don't forget to follow me!

xoxox<3 always amanda dawn

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Cabin Fever & What It Does

*Hey guys, i know that i haven't posted a blog in a few days, been really busy, plus my internet has been out due to electric problems the other day. Things have been pretty good, been taking Brooklyn to my church Vacation Bible School. She didn't get to go last night though, mainly because we weren't home at all yesterday and she was so tired. She would've been super cranky and everything. Yesterday we had to get up at 5:30 to take my boyfriend to work almost 20 miles away, then me and Brooklyn had a doctors appt. then we came home for 20 minutes to get something to eat, then had to leave again to take her to the babysitter then i had a female dr appt. at 1:30. Then after that appt, i had to go pick Brooklyn up, then had to run all the way back to my boyfriends work to pick him up. Trust me, the drive isn't pretty at all, takes about 30-40 minutes to get there. After we picked him up, we went grocery shopping. After we get home, my boyfriend decides that he wants to go frog giggin. He didn't even ask me if i had plans, or if i wanted to do anything with him first. Didnt even say bye, just walked out the door... I'm telling you, i'm about to go CRAZY in this house. I've been here 3 weeks and a day without going out, doing anything, with my boyfriend or my 'so called' friends. I've been here 24/7 with a cranky, sickish (was sick) wild, won't slow down for anything... baby. Last night, i got so upset that i couldn't do anything I don't know why, but i just broke down. I believe i have finally understood the definition of CABIN FEVER. I was thinking crazy thoughts, i was saying crazy things, i had a screaming baby who didn't want to go to sleep. I was about to lose my mind! I haven't seen or spent time with my boyfriend in over a week, because when he got home from work, i had to leave for VBS, whenever we have a night to spend time together for the weekend before he works his butt off, he decides to take off to frog gig. I'm soo lonely. Nobody to really talk to, nobody to really spend time with. My own daughter don't even wanna hug or kiss me anymore. Seems like i just can't do anything right. Its not fair! Being stuck in this house with NO way out is like being taken for hostage. I have NO car to go anywhere, to do anything! I know thats all i've been talking about for a week or so, but a car would be nice; just knowing that i can leave the house would make me feel better. But knowing that i CAN'T go nowhere, is the worst feeling ever. I don't complain i don't whine, i don't cry about how my life is. I wish it would be like to movies, the girl has a rough way to go and in the end she gets rewarded for her effort. Life's not like that at all.

-->By the way, i might have found a woman up the road that would let me babysit her three kids (heard she pays good) so hopefully i get a call later on today! Wish me luck!
Oh and P.S. If you have me on facebook, i will be posting up some pictures of baby items that im selling, that Brooklyn doesn't need or will never use, or haven't used, etc. So go check those pics out and let me know if your interested!

Follow Me! xoxox ♥always Amanda Dawn

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I'm Nothing But Tired

*Yesterday. I wasn't home for more than 20-30 minutes. I woke up about 11 am, then me & Brooklyn had to get ready to go to mcdonalds with my boyfriends mom & his two nieces. We left here at noon. Got something to eat, ate at the park & then played for a little bit. Brooklyn played in the dirt, mud, sand everything! Had it all over her & i can't stand a dirty baby haha (wish i had taken pictures.) So after we got home, i laid Brooklyn down for a nap, then jumped in the shower. After i got out it was already 3:00. So i decided to wake Brooklyn up & head down to the bank (they closed at 4) & put the rest of my money in a savings account! So my money is safe & isn't going to be touched unless i absolutely need it. The walk (which isn't about 10 min walk) was not fun! I had Brooklyn in a huge stroller pushing it up hills & downhills & it was just a mess! Even though i do need the exercise. But anyways, by the time we get home, it was 4:30 and as soon as i get into the door, my boyfriend shows up. So after i got everything put away & got Brooklyn a little snack. It was 5:00 which i had to get me & Brooklyn ready for VBS (Vacation Bible School.) at my boyfriends mom's church. It was Brooklyn's first VBS experience. & she was a tad cranky & irritable, but i could tell she was having a blast! I always had fun at VBS when i was little. It was a mess though. Jr's niece (youngest;2 almost 3) was in Brooklyn's class. Brooklyn was the youngest. So Brooklyn wasn't minding me at all, i was a helper in her class. & boy can i tell you i was WORE out by the time it was all over, running around after 6 1-3 year olds is a JOB!!!! It was outrageous!

There was one little boy who just took off running in the parking lot when we took the kids out to play. The lady chasing him was getting aggravated! hahaha. She had to warm up to the jumping and singing at first during song time! But tonight i think we're going to go to my church's VBS (theirs is this week too) that way me & Brooklyn can just switch off churchs everynight.

She had a blast! When we got home, Brooklyn was WORE out. She literally passed out before i even got her to her crib!!
After i put her to bed, i got the chance to make my sweetie pie, his father's day supper. Pork chops, corn & mashed potatoes. They were good! By the time i got to get in bed, my feet & my legs were killing me. The most i have done all summer pretty much. hahaha. That's why i never got to post a blog up yesterday! Thats pretty much all i have to blog about! Hope everybody is doing good.... OH!!! & i almost forgot!

-->If you live in my local area (and you know me personally) then let people know that i have considered to do a babysitting job (at my house). That way i can still work & make money but i can still be with Brooklyn all day, plus it would help her on her sharing skills (which we need to work on majorly!) & it would give her someone to play with during the day. So if you or anyone else you know is looking for a babysitter, please contact me on facebook. If you know me personally then you will probably be a friend of mine on facebook. So PLEASE PLEASE let me know!!! I'm in desperate need of a job!! :) Thank you!

xoxoxo ♥always Follow Me!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happy Father's Day!

*Hope all the fathers out there had a good fathers day! :) I really didn't have the chance to make that special home cooked meal tonight. But on the other hand i had a pretty great day. Got to sleep in til noon then got up & got ready for my brothers cookout at 2. Brooklyn had a blast there! Plus their new place is AMAZING! Just makes me want a place of my own... but that day will someday come... i hope haha. Brooklyn would not stop running around in circles, plus she ate a ton of food!

I had a ton of fun today. Well after we got done at my brothers cookout, we went to my boyfriends mom & dads to see his dad for awhile! I was about to pass out i was so tired... Im gonna sleep good tonight & so is Brooklyn. Poor thing is worn out from playing. She hasn't had a nap all day except for maybe a 20 minute nap on the way to my boyfriends mom & dad's.
-->So tomorrow when i get the time, me & Brooklyn are going to walk to the bank, & the money that i have left of my graduation money, is going into a savings account, & maybe i can save up enough money the next couple months to think about getting me a car, then get a job. Hopefully that would solve a lot of my problems when it comes to worrying if & when i need to go out & run some errands. This summer has just been a BORING summer especially with no car throughout the whole day. Thats all i can think about after i graduated! Its crazy. But i don't know what else to blog about.... So like i said i hope everybody had a GREAT fathers day! Cherish the moments while you have them...

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Saturday, June 18, 2011

Not Feeling The Best

*I woke up at noon today. Not feeling the greatest. My head feels like its going to explode! My ears hurt, my throat is scratchy, im super tired, congested, runny/stuffy nose and i feel like pulling my eyes out because of the sting in my eyes when i blink or close my eyes. Sinus infection? Maybe. But i've never had one (that i can remember) so i dont know what it's like. My boyfriend is getting on me for not cleaning the house and just being lazy today. Well im sorry that i DONT feel good at all.
Anyways, so tomorrows fathers day :) We're going to my brothers new house for a cookout for my daddy (yes i still call him daddy)! I don't know where i would be today in life if it wasn't for my dad.

I love him :) So speaking of Daddy's Day ... Im planning on making a home cooked supper for my lover! I hope he likes it! Right now Jr's mowing, after he gets done, me & him are gonna go out to chili's & grab some food. Baby Back Ribs!? I think so :) Ribs is my favorite food on the planet. Brooklyn's sleeping at the moment, she went to bed at 7:30 pm last night! & woke up at her usual time (10:00) Shes done that a couple times now. Makes me so proud :) Poor thing, i dont think shes feeling well today either. I'm kind of pumped for my brothers cookout tomorrow! Gonna take TONS of pictures. I love cookouts, especially during the summer. Just hope its not too hot outside. Right now im drinking alka seltzer & its absolutely gross! But at least my stomach ache is going away. Thats pretty much all i have to blog about for today!

Don't forget to follow my blog xoxoxo ♥Amanda Dawn

Friday, June 17, 2011

It Isn't Over Yet

*Today is just a long day, & its not every noon yet! Well i took Brooklyn to the dr this morning. She just has a nasty cold :( so they gave her some medicine to stop the coughing & the runny nose. So hopefully that will make her 100x better :) After her drs appt i went shopping & got a new outfit! :) Then after that me & Brooklyn went to burger king & i got her some lunch, she loves her kid meals :) On the way to my moms work early this morning, i gave Brooklyn her book to read in the car.. ha well it was the cutest thing ive seen

-->So lastnight Me, Nathan (Little Brother) & My boyfriend was playing volleyball outside. After i put Brooklyn to bed, i went back outside to continue playing. After my little brother went home, it all of a sudden decided to get dark. So we turned the back porch light on. Well right when i was going to pass the ball back to my boyfriend, my engagement ring decided it wanted to fly off my finger. I cried & cried thinking that i was never gonna see it again (mainly because it was my boyfriends mom's engagement ring & its been in the family ever since). Well when i got home today, i gave Brooklyn her medicine, laid her down for a nap, then went straight out to look for my ring... No luck. Well i got a bright idea to call my dad to see if we could use his metal detector to find it. My dad started looking & found my RING!!!! i was sooo excited! :D So i can't wait to tell the new to my Boyfriend whenever he calls on his lunch break :D My day is still not done. I have to go to my insurance place & update all my information, then have to go back to pick up my mom from work (since ive used her car all day) So hopefully it wears me out to the point where i sleep GREAT tonight :) Sunday we're heading to one of my older brothers new house for a cookout for THE BEST DADDY IN THE WORLD :) Sooo i think thats all i have to talk about...

Don't forget to follow me! xoxoxo ♥Amanda Dawn

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Rest Of My Life

So this morning, i wake up to Brooklyn coughing her head off :( she had a runny nose for almost 2 weeks & ive done everything that i can to help make it stop. Here these past couple days shes had a lot of crud in her throat. Well i've been giving her breathing treatments hoping that it would help. Nothing. So i would absolutely LOVE to take her to the doctor but guess what? I have absolutely NO WAY to get her there. I have no vehicle to take my child to the doctor in desperate need. Parents? Working. Aunts? Busy. Boyfriend? Working. So i have to settle for waiting til tomorrow to get my daughter to the doctor & use my mothers car. It makes me SO mad that i have no job, no car when i need them the most! I was really about to start calling up my friends & ask them to take us. But i don't want to be such a mooch. Am i really gonna have to mooch off my friends & family for the rest of my life? I don't want to! I ALWAYS said that once i move out on my own that i will NEVER depend on other people for anything, & that i could do it on my own. Well i was WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE depending on OTHER people to go out of their way just for me, when i should be able to do it all on my own. I HATE it! I really dont wanna do this forever! Anybody have ANY ideas??? Or advice? i would really appreciate it! :/

xoxoxox ♥Amanda

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Hey Guys!

Hey everyone!
*Just so you know this isn't really my first blog post, just deleted all my old ones so i can start fresh & get new people to follow & read :)
*So things have been really crazy these past couple weeks, but this past week & 1/2 its really calmed down alot. I've graduated (June 3rd;; Class of 2011!) & i've been home this past week & 1/2 alone with Baby Brooklyn & shes really became a HUGE momma's girl. More spoilt than ever :/ I really really want to start looking for a job. But i know how hard it would be with sharing a vehicle & finding ways to get brooklyn to the baby sitter & finding ways to work, so i think my best bet; is to wait til this fall & start putting my applications in & hope for the best. The money that i have earned from graduation is soon going to the bank (after i do some much needed shopping lol) & im gonna try to put it in a savings account & hope that it draws a lot of intrest (unless they make me get a bank account :/ which is something that i don't really need) but other than that idk what else to do with that money, save up money so i can get a job & make some more money.
--> On the other hand; I've really been lonely these past couple days. My boyfriend is working double (when he can) so all i have is a baby who sleeps all the time :( I really want to start saving up money for a car or something cuz im just a bout to blow up with insanity of sitting at home all day everyday. Is this really how it's going to be for the rest of my life? I'm deffently going to get a job & go to school (next year) & hopefully i'll figure out what i really want to do with the rest of my life. Until then.. I don't know!

But this is about all i have to blog about :) So follow me! hahaha